Today, I have felt the most odd string of emotions. This mornin, at 5 AM, I felt completely content and at peace with the world. By seven, I felt stressed. So far, all was normal. Then, though, at 9 I felt warm-fuzzy. LAter, fatigue set in. Happy returned for a period, then a period of darker sensations settled over me. At dinner I felt content, and the for no reason unbridled fustration rose in me. As I looked at my friends list on facebook, I was unwarrantedly overcome with tears. I have felt every emotion today.
Every emotion, that it, except one. My mind refuses to feel lonely. Loneliness is right there, poking and pordding me, reminding me that she isn't on the other end of the phone if I pick it up, that she won't answer the text if I send it. We're e-mailing back and forht, but her voice isn't there. Loneliness so desperately wants inside my head for the next week.
So, my mind is occupying itself with other emotions. They make no sense at times, and I've laughed at the upheaval of every single one, but it's a sobering thing to figure out why I'm doing this.
I care about her a lot. A lot more than I've realized before.
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